I remember the early days of this blog very well. Hours upon hours were spent figuring out how to make everything work, create new content, interact with other bloggers and trying to make a name for myself on the world wide web and in the Belgian blogosphere as well. There was so much drive and passion behind it, other things often had to make way for my blog – drinks with friends were sometimes cancelled because I wanted to work into the wee hours of the night and going on vacation certainly didn’t mean disconnecting from the blog. Time went by and I achieved a certain level of success with and thanks to my blog. The initial purpose of starting this space was actually accomplished after a few months: I became a freelance fashion journalist, working for several magazines, online media and did some copy-writing here and there. My blog didn’t attract a million visitors each month, but I was pretty pleased with the overall results.
I’ve gathered work and blog experience over those four years and I’ve noticed it has caused a shift in my blogging behavior in the last year or so. Although I can’t deny there were blogging highs, there have definitely been a fair amount of lows. Maybe life got in the way sometimes, maybe I’ve grown a bit cynical about certain things but somewhere along the way, I lost some of my motivation – which has led to a feeling of not being entirely proud of my blog the way I used to be. This is something I’ve been struggling with for a while, but I’ve kept on going – even though I felt like my content could have been better, and that I should have worked harder in achieving that. When you’re dealing with blogging doubts and you force yourself to post anyway – I guess you all know that’s not the best mix to come up with your most creative content anyway. Despite of all these mixed feelings, I’ve decided I don’t want to give up – but I do want to change the way I’m doing things now.
Some important work and blogging goals are to find & feel that same amount of motivation and joy I had in the beginning again – to feel proud and accomplished of the things that I work on. This article is not an apology or a need for confirmation of any kind, it’s simply a reflection on my personal blogging experience of the last year or so. To be honest, I’m still figuring out what I want the future to hold for this online space – but I am certain I want to work hard and find out what makes me the happiest in doing so.
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